The Dude Abides

So today my family and I cleaned part of my room this morning.  Im too old to have to have my mom help me clean my room, but it happened and now it looks nice.  We walked down the beverly so I could show them the CBS building and I kicked my brothers butt in Fooseball. TWICE.  haha.  Well Perry was on my team the second time, and he is with me right now so this was duly noted.  I applied for a job at Curry Wurst and at a Vitamin Shoppe.  My parents were kind and took all three of us out to Maggianos.  It was hilarious when I think about how hard it was for us to order and everything that comes along with a Kolvek outing, Perry did pretty good, once again he is sitting by me right now.  Pery can also type fast, he won the type fastest award, but apparently I can type a little faster than him, he is impressed.  We walked through the grove on the way home which is always fun for the family, unfortunatley we did not catch the Trolley which my Dad loves to ride so much, yes he is a grown man, and he constantly talks about riding the trolley, haha.  We came home got our cold dr.peppers out of the fridge and watched the end of the Heat OKC series. I kind of put my basketball watching on hold this week but figured we coudl watch the end of the game because it was probably going to be the last game and it was a blast to get to do it with my family, my bros, my amigos, and Jon.  We finished the night to dancing to the music that was being played on the floor above us, some tenants Im sure where upset, we just had a lot of fun and thought it was hilarious.  We played some crazy 8's to finish out the night.  Im sure grandpa Al is reading this, Hi Grandpa Al, and who ever reads this, have a goodnight.  Goodbye.  P.S. nice having Michael out here, we have been quoting Lebowski with a fresh feel.  Goodnight. The dude abides

So in some ways I feel like Bill Murray at the begginning of stripes.  I was going to quote stripes because I looked up bill murray but i found something much more grand, and that is that, it just doesnt matter.  it just doesnt matter, it just doesnt matter, it just doesnt matter.  Lately I have been wanting to become Rocky lately, and I think that my opponnet isnt someone that I can neccessarily see, heck I dont know maybe its myself.  What I do know is that I need to show up and play the game.  Holy cow I think Im overwhelming myself, i was looking at the different acting classes you can take out here, there are millions.  I need to find steady work right now though and i would also like to find a church if thats possible. 

A grandpa Al kind of day

I think my life is pretty unbalanced, but i exercised to day, man that felt great

Shakespeare

So recently I quit working at my soccer job, I am still technically employed there, I have applied at the movie theater a couple retail places, the jamba juice and an ice cream shop.  I have also applied for after school programs and a teleouseling job to try and get people to donate money, which woulod suck but eh, maybe id be good at it.  Right now I dont really feel like I have went anywhere since i had to quit my internship and improv classes, which kind of stinks but I guess sometimes you feel like your going nowhere and have to start over, which isnt all bad, just hard to get started again, I feel like I waste a lot of time trying to get things that arent really gettable, if that makes sense.  Maybe its because I havent really worked towards getting my sag card or anything of that nature either, I beleieve I need to find a way to find a balance of trying to achieve my goals and finding a job, because then I wont were out so easy and will be more consistant with my search in both things, whithout my creative outlet I am nothing really.  Sometimes i just make myself do something like job search or go to help wanted things I find because if I dont then I might just end up doing nothing, and at least by trying I can gain some new prespective on my situation, and hopefully get a job, its just a confusing thing i guess and i will figure it out. Thanks blog

ERic

Well, I am making myself blog because I think it is slightly helpful. Right now I am taking 2 classes a week and interning at Io, although it seems like it is getting in the way of other stuff. I dont feel all that engaged in my Io classes right now and have even considered dropping them and the internship as well, perhaps I need to take a step back and figure some stuff out including what I want to do for acting, submitting headshots to agents, and figuring out a money maker solution so I dont have to constantly worry about having enough money to do certain things, but I think even once I figure out a way to really make it work it is always going to be a struggle so I might as well get used to it, stop worrying, and just find some good consistent ways to make some dough. I was on the price is right today with a bunch of friends, I was not able to see it but it was a fun and good time. It is pouring outside today. Man I really need to get on my game, I am letting to many things distract me I think, and Im not trusting myself enough or listening to my gut enough. Eventually I will just have to man up and do it. I am pretty unsatisfied with how things are going right now, my last blog it seemed like things were getting better and now I feel like i have kind of lost a handle on things even more so, but maybe it is just the storm before the sunshine, or whatever they say.
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Today I woke up at the crack of dawn shortly after having a dream about failing at my improv class. I dont know what gets you up in the morning, but in my strange brain the thought of failing gives me incentive, to do what, im not quite sure, succeed i hope. Well I putsed around for awhile doing seemingly important things and then dabbled into applying for two retail jobs down at the grove. I ran into this real nice guy named Martin that I met while auditioning for Daniel Hoffs agency. I have ran into him about three times this week crazy. I met this girl in my complex named Nina and she has been encouraging me to write and get my sag card and every other thing you can think of, shes pretty cool I went and watched her do a stand up gig a couple weeks back. I also talked with another guy in my complex today named Gentrie and he gave me some sound advice, "remember why you came out to LA and remember that your current situation is just a stepping stone for the future." Good stuff i thought. I got to decide whether to extend my lease or not pretty soon, meaning any day now. I dont know its not a super easy decision and I wish I had more people to talk to about it sometimes. But I think it will be easier to not move my stuff, no living situation is perfect, and living with 5 guys I'm sure is definetly less than perfect, but it might just have to do for the time being. And I oughta be out there doing my thing so it should not bother me a bit. Lets just hope this if true. Tomorrow I will be officially enrolling with Killians commercial class, and hopefully I can land some sweet money soon and be able to get some awesome headshots, so I can send my shit out and hopefully get some awesome responses from commercial agents. I dont know what else is going on? Everyones talking about the hunger games, I am about halfway through the book and am itching to get to the theater, better get on that. My improv instructor said I did my best work in class tonight and I thought I did ok, Im certainly capable of a lot more entertaining stuff, but watched a show after class and being wiped have headed home to blog and drink my beers before I go to bed. Seem to have written a longer blog than usual. In a wierd way, I think today was really good on a lot of levels. Things are getting better, and if Im persistant that will keep happening. Everything will be ok. Dramatic blog comes to a close. Goodnight

So yesterday I slept in until 11 because I stayed up late with some people at Sheddys. Poor choice, absolutley but it was fun. Could have bought 3 6 picks witht the money used at the bar, or 40 packs of romen noodles, sad thought. I went for a run yesterday got some stuff done around the house and had improv class. Improv class was a blast and it has kind of showed me that I am getting more used to the people here. One of the girls in my class Angela is going to retake level 2, I havent got the word I have passed yet but I assume I will. But I liked what Angela said, she said she was retaking level 2 even though she passed because she thinks thats where shes at on the learning curve, and that she is trusting herself with her decision because she knows herself better than anyone else does. Although I think my work ethic has been mediocare at best latley. I have been kind of locked up with my soccer job but havent figured out any alternative plan to deal with it. Enough complaining, I signed up for extra work this month so hopefully I get to do some more background for tv. I just need to figure out how to spend my time better, and I need to get more income, Im glad that I am trying to get what I want out here, but I need more direction. Im going to check out a church I have been to before on Sunday before I coach soccer, so I am hoping that goes well. My spirits are kind of low, but I know I can do this, and hope I get in can into the right gear or state of motivation to push me to where I need to go.