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I am in the show broadway and beyond right now. Also staying busy with half hearted attempts at homework, and the chasings of the wind from day to day. I've decided that killing my emotions isn't a good thing. I realize as I get older this is something that I do, i think everyone does, but it I feel it at a higher degree now. So today I told more people about how I felt. Some of it propaganda and hidden agenda but through it all and all good intentioned. I'm begginning to realize that anything but an honest life isn't something that I can fathom to live long term. Some times I just want to cover up in a protective blanket, and go to sleep on my feelings, but I can't do that anymore, my heart won't let me. Colin Koth and I have been getting together talking movie script for my senior project, it should be fun! I feel like we should set a dateline for our activity though, or meeting times at the very least. I have been getting to no Naomi a little better, few times hanging out but it seems like things haven't fit well with timing lately, that's cool though, I'm going to keep trying. I tried out for all my sons, that was good, one of myf avorite tryouts and think I had one of my best readings. How do i feel, let me try and explain that one, well I'm not like really happy or satisfied, I'm needing to leanr more patience i think, im kind of excited about each day though, that's a strength, i'm excited about everything I've talked about, I feel like these experiences are challenging my sensibilities, part of me though still wonders why its here and what my place is in the world, who am i here to help, benefit, lots of questions...guess I'll figure it out as i go, or just go.