Thoughts

It's been an interesting end/start of the year. I booked another principal sag commercial the exact same day I did last year, one of the only differences is that I did it on my own. Last year my rep got me an audition and I booked it, I found this audition on my own and booked it.  I need to be more proactive and get into a class now, I am thinking probably the groundlings again for improv. There's no point in sitting around out here, I'm here for a reason. It's ok if it doesn't work out, but I'm going to work my ass off for two of many reasons. Number 1 being I believe in myself and my abilities, 2 being I don't know what else the hell I would do. And I think I'm meant to be up in the air. I think there are probably other professions I could be good at, I just don't care, I don't mean thT completely I just don't know how to put it. I know that one of my problems is I'm not open enough, I do need to be open to more possibilities, I just might have to go through a shit load of bad ones first I'm not sure. I think I have hesitance to the daily suggestions sometimes of what an actor ought to be doing because I don't put up with bullshit. If I know something's not right, I listen to my gut and I know right away.  While  I think being able to smell peoples shit will help me alotnod the long run, I've got to sort of go through there shit I think to make it.. I'm considering seeking a print agent, see if I can make some extra cash that way. I think I. Have to leave my preschool job behind, it's just not worth it.     I'll figure it out , I'm not a rookie anymore, but like. A rookie I have to keep learning and keep moving on. I have to learn to start doing things for me, and not to please others. It can't be for fame or anything that isn't my decision. Just thought is blog cuz I don't blog although much And these were basically thoughts I had throughout the day. Thanks. Eric

Happy new year!

Happy new year! It is January, I have my first audition this month tomorrow. Going to a casting office I haven't been to awhile, got an audition there through self submission, should be fun, I remember the lady being really supportive and nice, other than that I literally have nothing planned, but I may have to go out and seek some wardrobe for the character, I'll have to bring a few characters in. Get my Kramer on. Any way I am excited for this month. I think I've been taking things a little too seriously, I don't need to chill out by any means, but I think have too relax a little, worry less basically, I mean life is gonna be fine, there's nothin to worry about. I know this post is heavily saturated with commas by the way. Cool well, you know work is work, there is no doubt about that, I have an application that is being reviewed at Taco Bell, and I did not get called in at target, I'm still submitting for everything I can on my acting pages. There have been some really beautiful days here. Need to get to work burning also need to get out and see some cool stuff a new museum or something, gotta dip the soul in the artistic well sometimes. I saw this old lady that lives on my floor today. She is really nice, she has. A came. She drove a year ago but now I think she mostly gets rides, she stays pretty active. She's obviously has some hunch or back issues, but once she notices you she is good in spirits, very kind lady. Whelp. Time for bed, peace!