So I feel that art is awesome, because you have the opportunity to create what you want to create. And you don't have to care about whether it sells or not. u could work a job painting the rest of your life and make art on the side forever, get an easy low paying job that's clever. Judy and me made rhymes on the deck today and we had a nice walk and talk that I enjoyed so much. I wrote a story today and plan on filming it whenever. I Have been trying to find balance for so long, but I think art is more about just doing now. It isn't really something you should have to think about or question, unless you really want to. I'm startin to realize their are things that appeal to me that I have wanted to make lately but have been hesitant because of end result thinking and outside product people thinking. These are illusions that really don't exist like I heard Michael Jordan say in his Hall of Fame speech. I have been listenin to Saul Williams and Elliot Smith, they are so awesome. A big realization for me was that I like them, but I'm not them, not in any way, the only way an end product would sound anything like them and be something I enjoyed would be if it was really meant to be, and then their is really no explanation about that. I love their lyrics, they are meaningful and I believe we are hearing an artist striving and seeking their true voice, and enjoying themselves in it, whether their songs are happy or sad.