So in some ways I feel like Bill Murray at the begginning of stripes.  I was going to quote stripes because I looked up bill murray but i found something much more grand, and that is that, it just doesnt matter.  it just doesnt matter, it just doesnt matter, it just doesnt matter.  Lately I have been wanting to become Rocky lately, and I think that my opponnet isnt someone that I can neccessarily see, heck I dont know maybe its myself.  What I do know is that I need to show up and play the game.  Holy cow I think Im overwhelming myself, i was looking at the different acting classes you can take out here, there are millions.  I need to find steady work right now though and i would also like to find a church if thats possible.