Today I woke up at the crack of dawn shortly after having a dream about failing at my improv class. I dont know what gets you up in the morning, but in my strange brain the thought of failing gives me incentive, to do what, im not quite sure, succeed i hope. Well I putsed around for awhile doing seemingly important things and then dabbled into applying for two retail jobs down at the grove. I ran into this real nice guy named Martin that I met while auditioning for Daniel Hoffs agency. I have ran into him about three times this week crazy. I met this girl in my complex named Nina and she has been encouraging me to write and get my sag card and every other thing you can think of, shes pretty cool I went and watched her do a stand up gig a couple weeks back. I also talked with another guy in my complex today named Gentrie and he gave me some sound advice, "remember why you came out to LA and remember that your current situation is just a stepping stone for the future." Good stuff i thought. I got to decide whether to extend my lease or not pretty soon, meaning any day now. I dont know its not a super easy decision and I wish I had more people to talk to about it sometimes. But I think it will be easier to not move my stuff, no living situation is perfect, and living with 5 guys I'm sure is definetly less than perfect, but it might just have to do for the time being. And I oughta be out there doing my thing so it should not bother me a bit. Lets just hope this if true. Tomorrow I will be officially enrolling with Killians commercial class, and hopefully I can land some sweet money soon and be able to get some awesome headshots, so I can send my shit out and hopefully get some awesome responses from commercial agents. I dont know what else is going on? Everyones talking about the hunger games, I am about halfway through the book and am itching to get to the theater, better get on that. My improv instructor said I did my best work in class tonight and I thought I did ok, Im certainly capable of a lot more entertaining stuff, but watched a show after class and being wiped have headed home to blog and drink my beers before I go to bed. Seem to have written a longer blog than usual. In a wierd way, I think today was really good on a lot of levels. Things are getting better, and if Im persistant that will keep happening. Everything will be ok. Dramatic blog comes to a close. Goodnight

So yesterday I slept in until 11 because I stayed up late with some people at Sheddys. Poor choice, absolutley but it was fun. Could have bought 3 6 picks witht the money used at the bar, or 40 packs of romen noodles, sad thought. I went for a run yesterday got some stuff done around the house and had improv class. Improv class was a blast and it has kind of showed me that I am getting more used to the people here. One of the girls in my class Angela is going to retake level 2, I havent got the word I have passed yet but I assume I will. But I liked what Angela said, she said she was retaking level 2 even though she passed because she thinks thats where shes at on the learning curve, and that she is trusting herself with her decision because she knows herself better than anyone else does. Although I think my work ethic has been mediocare at best latley. I have been kind of locked up with my soccer job but havent figured out any alternative plan to deal with it. Enough complaining, I signed up for extra work this month so hopefully I get to do some more background for tv. I just need to figure out how to spend my time better, and I need to get more income, Im glad that I am trying to get what I want out here, but I need more direction. Im going to check out a church I have been to before on Sunday before I coach soccer, so I am hoping that goes well. My spirits are kind of low, but I know I can do this, and hope I get in can into the right gear or state of motivation to push me to where I need to go.

Christmas is near

I have wasted a little time watching TV. You know I will be honest, Im not really sure what I am doing out here right now. I know I came out to be an actor, but how am I spending my time right now that translates to that, I'm not even sure it does, well at the very least at least I have made it out here and have started doing my thing. I just need to wake up from this slump and let eric be eric again. Do the best I can, be happy, thats what I do best. Still havent gotten to a play yet, movies are too expensive to be wasting money on right now. Sherlock Holmes was good though. Night

Got a job today with security but think I may need to decline because of driving purpose. I have hit up alot of places around the area, when I say a lot i mean quite a few, probably 10-15 aiming high so in the grandscheme thats really not a whole lot. But I have also filled out quite a few apps and sent them in for security jobs. My soccer job has been pretty slow latley but I changed my hours so hopefully I am freed up for more extra work but also have more availability within my soccer days. I got a class this saturday that I can walk to from my complex so thats nice. Ive noticed myself saying the words grandscheme and ballpark every once in a while since I have been out here, looks like I brought my uncle Bill with me. Tom Waits came out with a new album, I think its awesome I havent had a whole lot of time to listen to it yet but it sounds very promising so far, good lyrics as anyways. You know Im thinking that i need to pick up the guitar a little more, I would like to get a little better maybe start to work on some finger picking and expand my library of songs i can play, maybe write some of my own. You know I also started watching Friday Night Lights I really think thats a good show, so far I have only seen the pilot. I helped out at a shoe giving yesterday to families in need and the people seemed very greatful, thankful for everyones help and the program thats there. We didnt have any plays this week or improv classes because of the thanksgiving week. This was a goodweek to not have anything like that going on just kind of reflect on whats important and trying to keep God at the top of my life. I have found that I have lost my touch with people a little bit, or maybe rather Im finding it, but I think Im ready to tap into what I have here and the people around me. I also want to start working 0n a short or a stand up bit or something like that. I think I have materail in my head its just a matter of getting it down on paper or word document or whatever means.

Late Night

3 chapters into the hunger games. Listening to Tom Waits. Having thanksgiving at Taylors. Running out of money. Skyped with Jeff. Need to talk to Bradley at somepoint. Help me God haha. You dont meet nice girls in coffee shops. Get a job save your money, Everybodys talking at the same time. You get to be king of the glove department or the fish bowl and then you have to find it again. haha is this nonsense.

Would like to just go to coffee instead?

Today I called down to the grove and let them know I got my guard card and luckily I called the head of public safety, so crossing my fingers for a call back on that. It would be nice to get a really steady job to help pay the bills, then I could scrape by a little better. I met a lady in the laundry room yesterday who moved here from Ohio in 1968. Thought shed have a better chance out here because black people werent respected or given as much of a chance as white men even if they had degrees back then. She told me not to get to caught up in the acting game and wanting to be famous, because most the people in the game that present themselves that way dont really have anything, or something like that. I still need to put a reel together and have been submitting to stuff through La casting. I might try and go to an open casting call with a talent agency tomorrow its run by an agent named Daniel Hoff who I have heard of a few times on set now and sounds legit. I was thinking about doing some stand up on pyramid schemes. I think I might wait for my next paycheck coming in before i purchase my surfboard, shoot. Ill atleast keep looking on it and checking my money situation. Ah boy, just thought Id make myself blog, its been awhile I guess. Might hit up an AFI film festival movie before improv class tonight. Maybe I should be applying for more jobs around the area and such, the guard jobs not guaranteed, i might not get a call until christmas or something like that. Ive also would like to look into a ping pong league, I believe I have heard my neighbors, so they must either be playing ping pong or beer pong, either way it sounds like fun. Lindsay Lohan hasnt been spotted in the area yet, so my hopes of taking her home for thansgiving or christmas arent looking up, but you never no when I might run into her, my uncle Mike is depending on me. O man what a confusing life, i keep forgetting to eat, although I really dont want to spend a dime, i dont have that many dimes, well more than i probably think it just doesnt seem like it. Im sure i have more to write, more on my mind, but we will peace out for now, peace out.

Yup

Today I did background work for the blood and guts production web series and show hillstone, it was alright. As funds begin depleting im thinking i will need to get a second job, but dont feel any calling my name in this area if that makes any sense. Met a few people who have been involved in security and food running so im just looking for hiring signs. I suppose I could look for some jobs when i go audition for what i think is a student film on the movie superbad on monday at usc. Im feeling pretty dull, need to get out of the house. Havent written anything in awhile, havent memorized any of my lines for my new play.