Acting 101

I have been tentative about blogging.  But wont go in to detail. Straight to the point. I have been doing extra work and figuring stuff out with my agent, that is more than some people tend to do, it is still very bare minimum.  I dont want to live a life of bare minimum, thats not who i am, thats not who i have ever been, go big or go home has to be the tale for me, its the only thing that gets me excited and going.  No more excuses, there are too many actors out here trying to do exactly the same thing that I am doing, some struggling more, some less, who cares.  Now I just need to seek or figure out, although i dont think figuring out is neccessarily the best strategy, I am not a psychic and there is really no idea to know exactly what works, but you can put your best attempt out there, go with your gut, and eventually get to that point where, ya, maybe you do have it figured out and know whats best for you, my goal is to get to this point.  Whether this means getting a better job, sticking with the same job, marketing myself more as an actor, doing stand up, improv, or whatever really, sag contract ects i believe really has to be a journey of trial and error.  I have an audition on tuesday, so what I need to do is go in there and absolutley kill it, know what i am doing as far as sides, get in there and let loose in front of the camera, do my best, go home, look forward to more opportunities to perform.  Stay proactive, stay attentive to whats going on around me, go for it, go for it, and go for it some more.  I had a conversation with my uncle Mike tonight, it was literally just talking to my Uncle Mike about WWE seeing whats up, catching up.  I really want to strive to be my own boss/entrepenuer.  Have a standard, set goals, get in touch with my spirituality and make some serious shit happen, or let it happen, being prepared.  There are just too many ways to be a proactive actor, a successful actor, there is no excuse for not getting the job done.  I have to have a plan, i have to attack that plan.  If i wanted to be comfortable, i would have just stayed at home, i didnt want that, and thats why i didnt do that.  I chose to come out here, i chose to do it, its a new season, and its game time, so it is absolutley neccessary to go to practice.  I had thought about not blogging until i had got to where i wanted to be, but right now i feel it could be important and i dont know about vital, but a tool to keep me on track to get me where i want to be.  Where do I want to be, i usually say commercials, well commercials are great.  I audition and maybe a book a few and make some money, also important to keep in mind that it really could be my start, thats how a lot of actors or so they say really get started in this industry, so it may be wise to invest in that.  But it is important to look at the big picture.  I think everyone finds where there gift is most useful but right now I want to have a speaking part on a big show, or a pilot that makes it big, or just somewhere to be seen, and by golly so does everyone else haha.  One thing i know, but can never be sure, but at least this i have figured out.  Ok, its me, I am the one that needs to find a way to do this, it doesnt matter how successful other people are, or who i know, i mean that does all matter, definetly, but i cannot tag along.  I have to lead, i am leader, so i have to do that.  Am i being a bit hard on myself, maybe.  But damn, this is a tough industry, whos gonna kick my own ass if Im not kicking my own, but i have to keep a positive outlook, with positive vibes along the journey.  So maybe sometimes i find myself in a place i dont want to be, that is no reason to quit, but it is even more reason to explore and find those niches about myself and hidden gems that will help me get to the top.   I have to be more friendly, start meeting people, i dont love the people im interacting with all the time, so what, meet new people.  If anyone can do it is you, and that is me.  I feel like this is all reasonably good stuff now I am just going to start naming off stuff that could be important and vital to my search, also before i forget, i also think what will really be vital, is learning how to take one thing on at a time.  It could be vital to join improv classes, i want them to be meaningful, and i know they look good on resumes, especially if you dont have a lot of prior experience in the industry to show off.  I keep hearing commercials that sound similar to the class i was in, it may not be a bad idea to get back into that as well.  Before I go on, it is important to remember that these things i want to do, cost a hell of a lot of money, especially if you are taking 2 things at once.  So I need to find a good way to make money.  So hopefully i get lucky with a booking, making some national dough, thats not guarnteed though.  Find a very steady part time job, or a full night time job.  While keeping up with writing, acting, and networking, cooking, doing my thing, learning how to live in my own environment comfortably, without geting comfortable, or settling for what i can get.  I could sit around and start booking things, thats totally possible, do i want that to be the extent of my career? NO.  So I might as well start going after it now before i wait on that one special job.  Ok this has been a long blog and i feel that it may be starting to drag, so i will edit and go to bed.  Goodnight Blog.