Writing again

So I actually wrote a pretty substantial blog and then all the sudden the page got deleted.  It happens.  I was writing about ways I need to be more proactive and how I need to pick it up and be hungry again basically, and I also wrote some new things I was looking into like Second City which may be worth looking into.  Im basically trying to stay in the moment and keep a positive outlook on things because that is what Ill need to crawl my way back into a good place in my head and to have good motivational vibes to kind of power me towards achieving my goals and not getting so side tracked with things that are not important.  I think I keep telling myself Im going to do it tomorrow and that attitude doesn't get much done.  What I have here is something that needs to be delt with now, however I gotta do it, do it now.  I don't want to be hard on myself but I want to motivate myself, just try and work hard enough to breath again so I can see the light and live in the moment.  Anyway, I got new headshots and postcards to be sent out, going to be consistent with that and ordered enough to be.  Like when I auditioned for my agent I didn't get in until about the 6th or 7th or 12th time so I know if Im not auditioning and I am just sending them something I am definetly going to have to be persistent for them to call me.  I will also have to be doing something, right now Im taking classes at the Groundlings but I think my whole life has to be less pinpointed and I just have to be proactive in general so when being asked what Im doing there are all sorts of things to explain because im not just trying to be proactive but my life will have become a proactive thing, so there will be no need to try and demonstrate how if it is.  One of the reasons I am writing this post is that I think I need to continue to do things like this, whether it is in my journal or a blog on the internet.  I must take this time to myself and lets this be a part of my proactive journey.  Another side thought is while I wish sometimes I was much further than I am, and I really still do, I realize that you know its just here for the taking as long as your being proactive that's all that matters, and also, Im starting to realize that some people out here have kind of quit on the acting thing.  So when you do things you have to do to pay bills and such don't feel so bad about it not lining up PERFECTLY because your doing it for your goal, so if you can remember that and just stay focused on it, keep at it and you will reach that level of maybe not perfection, but hitting your groove.