Eric

So it is early august and its coming to that time were i came here last here almost.  I have better headshots, an agent, and probably a little moral knowledge than I did last year, which is all great, but what I really need is to get that fire back, and I still need to get a job which really sucks.  My soccer job just has not panned out I hope I did not give up on that too early, but oh well, we have to take it from here now anyway.  So I have been applying online for jobs today, I hate to say it but it seems pretty pointless, when did I start going about this all wrong.  Anyway.  Im doing extra work again, purely for the money, I am well aware that its not really a way to advance your career, 3 sag vouchers could come over time but that would require you to possibly be sitting in extra seats for ages, not always but I have realized that extra work is not the route of the serious actor, and I know this, but I am desperate for money, which is nothing new.  I havent stood up on a stand up comedy stage yet which is really too bad.  I dont know, Do I need to keep agent shopping, am i going down the right path, how come its always just a stress to even leave the house, all these questions and many more flood my mind while I write this post.  What I tink I need to do, is continue agent shopping, churhc shopping, gig shopping, job shopping.  I would really be thrilled if I could support myself and hopefully to be able to move out of this apartment complex that I live in with three guys, all who are pretty lazy and not much of a motivational booster, but I got to find Eric, forget them.  I havent been home in a long time which sucks, i thought for awhile that it might really boost my spirits to get back but I seem to be stuck in this wallowing abyss which hopeuflly will all pay off someday.  I dont really have anyone i talk to on a regular basis about things, my family calls me now and then and i have a good art/life conversations with my uncle Mike and friend Jeff from time to time.  I come to blog today at 4pm which is a very early blog for me, I have not ate today, it seems like every trip to get food is a stress so, it just makes me ansy, like there is never a good time to go to the grocery store i just dont get it, I also felt like that over the summer last year so I dont know what is all about really, adjusting i guess.  I cant give up by by God I have to find a way to get going, i feel like since I got here its just been me grasping for straws, if only i knew what to do Id freakin do it, i think, but, until next time, hopefully i can turn it around in somway and report back.
Eric

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The Dude Abides

So today my family and I cleaned part of my room this morning.  Im too old to have to have my mom help me clean my room, but it happened and now it looks nice.  We walked down the beverly so I could show them the CBS building and I kicked my brothers butt in Fooseball. TWICE.  haha.  Well Perry was on my team the second time, and he is with me right now so this was duly noted.  I applied for a job at Curry Wurst and at a Vitamin Shoppe.  My parents were kind and took all three of us out to Maggianos.  It was hilarious when I think about how hard it was for us to order and everything that comes along with a Kolvek outing, Perry did pretty good, once again he is sitting by me right now.  Pery can also type fast, he won the type fastest award, but apparently I can type a little faster than him, he is impressed.  We walked through the grove on the way home which is always fun for the family, unfortunatley we did not catch the Trolley which my Dad loves to ride so much, yes he is a grown man, and he constantly talks about riding the trolley, haha.  We came home got our cold dr.peppers out of the fridge and watched the end of the Heat OKC series. I kind of put my basketball watching on hold this week but figured we coudl watch the end of the game because it was probably going to be the last game and it was a blast to get to do it with my family, my bros, my amigos, and Jon.  We finished the night to dancing to the music that was being played on the floor above us, some tenants Im sure where upset, we just had a lot of fun and thought it was hilarious.  We played some crazy 8's to finish out the night.  Im sure grandpa Al is reading this, Hi Grandpa Al, and who ever reads this, have a goodnight.  Goodbye.  P.S. nice having Michael out here, we have been quoting Lebowski with a fresh feel.  Goodnight. The dude abides

So in some ways I feel like Bill Murray at the begginning of stripes.  I was going to quote stripes because I looked up bill murray but i found something much more grand, and that is that, it just doesnt matter.  it just doesnt matter, it just doesnt matter, it just doesnt matter.  Lately I have been wanting to become Rocky lately, and I think that my opponnet isnt someone that I can neccessarily see, heck I dont know maybe its myself.  What I do know is that I need to show up and play the game.  Holy cow I think Im overwhelming myself, i was looking at the different acting classes you can take out here, there are millions.  I need to find steady work right now though and i would also like to find a church if thats possible. 

A grandpa Al kind of day

I think my life is pretty unbalanced, but i exercised to day, man that felt great

Shakespeare

So recently I quit working at my soccer job, I am still technically employed there, I have applied at the movie theater a couple retail places, the jamba juice and an ice cream shop.  I have also applied for after school programs and a teleouseling job to try and get people to donate money, which woulod suck but eh, maybe id be good at it.  Right now I dont really feel like I have went anywhere since i had to quit my internship and improv classes, which kind of stinks but I guess sometimes you feel like your going nowhere and have to start over, which isnt all bad, just hard to get started again, I feel like I waste a lot of time trying to get things that arent really gettable, if that makes sense.  Maybe its because I havent really worked towards getting my sag card or anything of that nature either, I beleieve I need to find a way to find a balance of trying to achieve my goals and finding a job, because then I wont were out so easy and will be more consistant with my search in both things, whithout my creative outlet I am nothing really.  Sometimes i just make myself do something like job search or go to help wanted things I find because if I dont then I might just end up doing nothing, and at least by trying I can gain some new prespective on my situation, and hopefully get a job, its just a confusing thing i guess and i will figure it out. Thanks blog

ERic

Well, I am making myself blog because I think it is slightly helpful. Right now I am taking 2 classes a week and interning at Io, although it seems like it is getting in the way of other stuff. I dont feel all that engaged in my Io classes right now and have even considered dropping them and the internship as well, perhaps I need to take a step back and figure some stuff out including what I want to do for acting, submitting headshots to agents, and figuring out a money maker solution so I dont have to constantly worry about having enough money to do certain things, but I think even once I figure out a way to really make it work it is always going to be a struggle so I might as well get used to it, stop worrying, and just find some good consistent ways to make some dough. I was on the price is right today with a bunch of friends, I was not able to see it but it was a fun and good time. It is pouring outside today. Man I really need to get on my game, I am letting to many things distract me I think, and Im not trusting myself enough or listening to my gut enough. Eventually I will just have to man up and do it. I am pretty unsatisfied with how things are going right now, my last blog it seemed like things were getting better and now I feel like i have kind of lost a handle on things even more so, but maybe it is just the storm before the sunshine, or whatever they say.
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